In this enlightening episode of "Shit That Goes On Our Heads," hosts G-Rex and Dirty Skittles sit down with Paige, a former psychiatric nurse turned clinical counselor. Paige shares her journey from psychiatric nursing to becoming a mental health advocate and counselor. This episode explores mental health, self-care, and the power of sharing personal stories to help others feel less alone.
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**Key Themes:**
1. Mental Health Journey: Paige discusses her transition from a psychiatric nurse to a clinical counselor and her challenges in the healthcare system.
2. Self-Care and Compassion: Self-care and acknowledging humanness are cornerstones of mental well-being.
3. Therapy and Support Systems: The significance of finding the right therapist and the impact of different therapeutic approaches, such as EMDR and exposure therapy.
4. Workplace Mental Health: The need for better mental health support in high-stress professions and the role of companies in providing mental health resources.
**Memorable Quotes:**
- "If you don't know that you're allowed to feel better if you don't know that you're allowed to take care of yourself, there is a whole heck of a lot of shame and guilt that comes with taking care of yourself."
- "Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is give voice to your struggles. Sharing your story might be the key that unlocks someone's prison."
- "Learn about self-compassion. If we can't acknowledge our humanness and that we are human beings and are not going to be perfect, then we're never going to feel a sense of satisfaction."
**Actionable Takeaways:**
1. Explore Self-Compassion: Visit selfcompassion.org and learn about Dr. Kristin Neff's work on self-compassion to better understand and integrate it into your daily life.
2. Seek the Right Therapy: Don't be afraid to 'speed date' therapists to find the right fit for your needs and personality. The proper support can make a significant difference.
3. Acknowledge Your Emotions: Understand that feeling a wide range of emotions is okay and that seeking help is a sign of strength, not weakness.
4. Support Systems Matter: If you're in a high-stress profession, ensure you have a robust support system and are aware of the mental health resources available.
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Hello. Hello, Miss Paige. How are you?
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I'm good. We are fantastic.
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I'm loving that shirt. I'm feeling the background, the everything. Thank you.
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My partner makes tie-dye shirts and they're so fun.
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Like he's a banjoist and what he does, and he made banjo ones.
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Oh my God, it's so cool. I love this. It feels like I'm in a massage parlor in your room.
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I feel like a bedroom was the vibe of camping. We were like,
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how can you make it feel like camping? And that's what we did.
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And my therapy office, actually, I have a big tree mural in the background there too.
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And I love it so much. People are always commenting. They're like,
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I feel like I come into this office and they're just like, we're chilling on
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a patio. That's like, that was the vibe.
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I'm loving it. I'm like, I can hear rain. I don't know if it's raining,
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but I'm like, ooh, the rain, the smell of the forest.
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Don't you see the campfire in the corner? I saw the smoke coming up. We're good.
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Right? How are y'all doing? We are awesome. Thank you for being so flexible.
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I was so excited when you said you could do it because you were so far out in
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the summer and I was like, Dirty Skittles is going to love her some Paige. Love her.
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I love it. Yeah, I'm so glad it worked out. Yeah, but it's so lovely to meet you.
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You like she's
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gonna lay back she's gonna take a little nap get comfy she's
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like i'm gonna just settle in we're ready i love getting
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cozy and it's so funny the majority of the
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clothes i wear people like i don't
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get oh that looks really cool it's always you look
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so comfortable and i'm always like i
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am so whether that was out of criticism or not
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i'm like you're right i am so comfortable my
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friends tease me because they're like oh we're back
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home Sharon's gonna put her comfy pants on I like live
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in like super comfy like yoga pants like the hoodie
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the hat like I'm like look I'm just here to be myself and feel good I need the
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fancy or tight jeans I work from home I wear sweats 24 7 all right I'm cool
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yeah like you don't like it you see me from the top we're good Yup.
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You would have been so excited. We went and saw Wanda Sykes last night in Rochester.
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How was that? Oh, my God. She was so funny. So, I'm so exhausted because it's two hours away.
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So, we drove up last night, stayed, drove home. I left there at 6.30 this morning. We got home.
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What time did I text you? Like, I think we got home at nine.
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And then we record all day. So, I've had like four coffees, a Coke,
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and now I'm having some water because I had the shakes.
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So we're good you're wired
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up you're ready to go not the best self-care but you know what in
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the moment is i'm good it's so good when we can do these different like activities
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that are outside of our norm that is so like fulfilling for our mental health
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but then also it's like now i don't get as much sleep or some of our other like
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routine stuff but it's doing it for the fun Yeah.
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Need it sometimes. We shake things up. We do.
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So do you want to do the intro or do you want me to do it? Go for it. You're on a roll.
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Music.
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I'm on a roll. Ready? Ready. Three. Three. Two. Two. One.
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Welcome back to another episode of Shit That Goes On Our Heads.
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Today we have an amazing guest, Paige. Welcome, Paige.
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And an amazing partner in crime, Dirty Skinless.
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Woohoo! We need like a track. You know what I'm saying? With people cheering.
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Oh yeah. I'll get right on it with the editor. Yeah, can you get a cheering track?
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Just record me. I'll keep doing different, you know. voices.
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Welcome, welcome. How's your day? How's it started so far?
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Which one of us? Yeah, I'm going to let Paige go because Sherry knows how my day's been.
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Yeah, I just heard about your crazy catching. I just got up because last night
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I was just doing gardening stuff and I got really caught up in it.
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And so I just kept going until way later than usual.
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And because here in BC, it's actually only like nine in the morning still. So...
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Whoa, what kind of gardening stuff? Oh, I was just planting all of like the
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things that I'm trying to get for like seedlings for my balcony.
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So this year I decided I'm going to go all out and get lots of little veggies
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and like lavender and tons of different little bits and pieces out there.
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So I have a hutch inside of my house that we've turned into a greenhouse as well.
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Nice. So we're going to have little seedlings in there so that I can plant them
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on the balcony later. So that's what I was up to all day yesterday.
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That's really cool. My son's school today for Earth, like they're calling the Earth Day thing.
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We got to go, they have a garden and he's in kindergarten.
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And we got to go to the garden and buy seedlings and different kinds of plants.
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So I just went and got like four different kinds of tomato plant.
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Cucumbers, like scallions, all kinds of stuff.
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So I'm very excited to, it's his plants, you know?
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Oh, that's so fun. I'm so thankful for the gardening knowledge my mom gave to
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me when I was younger, because we had a massive garden. That's where we got
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most of our fruit and veggies.
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That's awesome. So can you grow tomatoes off of your balcony?
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So my balcony is super duper windy. So the poor tomatoes get tossed a little bit too much.
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They go on some adventures out there. So this year I was like,
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okay, the peppers seem to do okay out there.
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So we'll have the peppers and all that jazz, has but the poor tomatoes i'm
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probably like they're probably getting thrown off the balcony i
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wouldn't be surprised can you imagine walking by and then all of a sudden like
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a tomato it just reminds me of like the that movie like or the tv series of
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looney tunes and when everybody didn't like some something or didn't think it
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was funny they throw tomatoes and like could you imagine walking by me like,
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I thought I was hilarious.
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The universe is just tossing tomatoes.
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I'm so excited that you're here, Paige, when we connected about a month ago.
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Just your journey and just everything you're doing for the community.
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And tell us about you. Tell us about your life.
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Yeah. My life is surrounded by around mental health and well-being.
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Not only for the other people, but for myself too. who I have been in this,
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or I was a psych nurse since 2009.
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And actually, just officially this month, I am no longer a nurse.
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I was able to remove that off of the resume.
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And I'm no longer a registered nurse, but I am a clinical counselor.
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And that journey started in 2019 when I decided to go back to school,
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which I never thought I was going to do. I was like, I'm going to be a psych
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nurse for life. And then suddenly I realized the health care system was really stressful. Shocker.
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I went back to school in 2019. So pre-pandemic shenanigans. So I already knew
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I was planning on exiting at the time.
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And it's only become more and more of a hostile work environment over the years. Wow.
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I can't imagine how stressful that would have been.
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How long did you say you did it for? 15 years
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15 years yeah 2009 and then
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my last shift i ever picked up was april of last
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year and so of april 2023 was the
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last shift i've picked up so it it shifted and changed in ways that i never
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thought it was going to happen being a nurse was a sustainable career previously
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and nowadays you're not seeing a lot of people nursing to retirement it's nursing
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getting a a side hustle and then completely separating and severing that tie.
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Yeah. What drove you to that industry? Yeah. What got me into the industry was
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I was one of the rebel kids. I was one of the outcast kids.
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I grew up in a very small town of 800 people.
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And so a lot of the kids I got along with were really struggling with their mental health.
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Now, of course, me as an adult looking back, I was like, oh,
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they were probably going through some pretty traumatic childhood stuff.
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And they were in and out of hospitals and they would be complaining about their
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psych nurses saying how much of a B-I-T-C-H as they were.
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And I was like, wait a minute, wait a minute. I don't have to become a doctor
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to work with people with their mental health.
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That's dope. And so as of grade nine, I knew I wanted to be a psych nurse because
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my friends were in and out.
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I wanted to be the cool psych nurse and the one who made people actually feel
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happy, not feel controlled.
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Wow. Wow. Kudos to you. Dude, so when you first started that,
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that journey, was it rewarding? Like, were you like, this is exactly where I want to be?
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Wow. So from nine years old, you get there and you're like, this is it.
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Can I ask you questions about it? Absolutely.
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Yeah, it was grade nine. It was grade nine when I went into it. Yeah.
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That makes more sense. I'm like, damn, at nine years old? I was so convinced
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I was going to be a famous rock star, which I've had different times of doing
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music in my life, but I didn't ever hit stardom.
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So yeah for sure ask questions what
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i wanted to get to right so you start this industry what was your
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day-to-day like i what did you do how did it start what was the day in the life
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of psych nurse yeah so i was in a pretty small community when i first started
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so it was only a 10-bed unit which was great especially for like a newbie nurse
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so i would get on shift we would do shift change reports.
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I would go prepare the medications that were the morning medications.
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We'd touch base with the psychiatrist, give him a lowdown on what the day was looking like.
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And then often throughout the day, we'd be doing the other in-between tasks
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of providing medications, helping them get certain things sorted out for their home lives.
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I would be able to do some counseling-related work and also lots of admission
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and discharge stuff and And just chatting with the physicians and things.
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But my favorite part then and always has been my interactions with the patients
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and being able to kind of get into those,
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deeper things that are holding them back from being able to live the lives that
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they were really wanting to live.
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And yeah, I absolutely loved it for quite some time. And then I moved in 2016.
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Yeah, 2016 to Kelowna, where it was a much bigger space.
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The space I originally went into was Psychemerge. And so that was a very different
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experience because the people when When they'd come in crisis,
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and I would be doing the assessments and working with the physicians to choose
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what was their next path.
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So I'd provide medications, I would do an interview, I would admit or help the
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person find access to resources in the communities.
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But even at that time period, at that mark, that's when the opioid crisis started really growing.
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And alongside the opioid crisis has
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also been like a huge increase in stimulant use
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especially meth in on the west coast for sure and
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i know that it's a little bit of everywhere but stimulants also increase our
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risk of violence in the workplace and there's only so much we can do when a
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person continues to be struggling in their cycle of addiction and so we'd have
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people people returning over and over again.
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And as much as I wanted to be able to feel the same genuine support every single
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admission, something wears on you when you know that what you're doing is not
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hitting the mark. And I know it's not just the patient.
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It's also the fact that our systems don't have enough of the things in place
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for people to have longevity in their health.
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And so with counseling, I can work alongside a person and we can create a plan together.
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They feel the full autonomy of it. It's not just focused around medication.
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It's focused around so much more. And I love to empower that autonomy in people,
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which a hospital environment just can't do. It's not the same.
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Because also, because of increases in lawsuits and people being more mindful
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of things as well in patient care, hospitals started to cover their butts.
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That's the amount of paperwork I was doing was unbelievable.
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And for some reason at the hospital here, they kept thinking that we're like
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on psych, we don't do anything apparently.
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So they kept giving us the trials of the new paperwork.
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So we were trying to figure out like we're under, it took an hour and a half
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to do an admission on our floor while the pediatric floor for the kiddos,
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15 minutes is what was told to me.
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I was like, you have got to be kidding me.
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Wow. So how did you take care of yourself through that?
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Because I feel like, and this might be coming just from a completely narrow
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point of view, but I feel like I would be, a little bit of my heart would go
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out to everybody I talk to.
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So if I hear something sad, how do you cope with that? How do you take care
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of yourself at the end of the workday?
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Totally. And that was one of the things that people didn't really talk about
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for us in the mental health world.
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I'm just snagging a good glass of water because I actually had a professor in
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university say to my class you're about to be a psych nurse you no longer get
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to have a mental illness no way no way really.
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Really,
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I love the reaction on your faces of clear like, what?
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Yeah. Yeah. You don't become a robot. You're not programmed now to never have
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feelings and emotions and thoughts. That's crazy.
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So I just thought you just don't feel, you know? And if you did feel that there
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was something wrong with you.
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And so that for me was a very telling sign of what the culture of healthcare
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really truly can have and hold is that we are expected to be professionals always.
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Even in our contracts that we sign, most hospitals have something in their contract
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that is aligned with, you can't shit talk them and you can't,
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and you always have to show up for your profession.
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And that's the same with a lot of our regulatory bodies too.
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We have to put on the persona of a professional all of the time,
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inside of work and outside of work.
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And as much as I agree with maintaining like respect for the career,
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I do not agree that we suddenly become inhuman.
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Right. Right. Right. It reminds me of like a very militant point of view, right?
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Like you are this thing now and you can't have emotions and you can't like...
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And you are a robot and you will do as I say and not as I do.
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Yeah. Just forget about yourself.
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Yeah. Caregivers, but we're not allowed to care.
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Right. Not about yourself, at least. Never. Definitely not about us.
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No, we have to be self-sacrificing. pricing for life. Right,
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right. How frustrating.
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But to answer your original question, I did not take care of myself.
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Yeah. I didn't think I was supposed to.
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And when did you start taking care of yourself? As soon as you left the profession?
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It was actually in 2020 when I had a workplace mental health injury and went off work for 10 months.
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I had a moment where it was a shift that That I was feeling good about.
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It's the beginning of January. I was on with two other badass nurses.
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Stepped into the shift. And I just had this one patient interaction for a really
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prolonged period of time. And it actually...
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Something switched in my brain where my fight or flight was activated to a point
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that I'd never experienced.
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And looking back, I don't actually think I'd ever experienced anger.
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Anger. I think anger was an emotion that I had shoved very deeply down that
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I wasn't allowed to have. I wasn't allowed to get upset.
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I'm like the sugar and spice and everything. Nice, because I'm a girl.
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And so there was this inner dialogue of like, we're not angry people,
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like those kinds of things.
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And did I know it at the time? No, because I didn't listen to my inner world
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before. I very much ignored it.
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And so yeah, it wasn't until I hit a point where I had no option but to take
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care of myself where I started to. Right.
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What lessons did you learn in the beginning of taking care of yourself?
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Oh, that it is... If you don't know that you're allowed to feel better,
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if you don't know that you're allowed to take care of yourself,
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there is a whole heck of a lot of shame and guilt that comes along with taking care of yourself.
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Yeah. That was the biggest thing that I learned right there.
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I knew I couldn't function.
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I couldn't even think about mental health. I couldn't talk about it.
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Couldn't think about it. Couldn't even mention the hospital without going into
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a panic attack. I was completely debilitated by my mental health.
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I had extremely high symptoms of PTSD at that time.
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And the thing that kept going on in my head was...
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And I look back now and I'm like, oh my gosh. But the loop that went back in
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my head was they didn't even hit you.
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What's wrong with you? Because I wasn't physically assaulted.
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I completely minimized my body's response to a traumatic event. Wow.
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And so after that, did you start, did you go into therapy for yourself?
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Yes. So I had already, I'd already been seeing a therapist. I guess that was
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one of my elements of self-care was that I did, I did start seeing a therapist,
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I think a year before that incident.
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Cause I knew I didn't feel good. I didn't know what I needed,
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but I just thought maybe I just need a career change.
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So that's why I was like, Oh, let's go back to school. it'll be dope but anyways
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with my counselor I got in touch with her immediately and
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I said something's wrong and I don't know what it is and so
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I was I got connected with her and she started
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doing eye movement desensitization and reprocessing with me or EMDR and then
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after me talking with the disability management team over and over and regurgitating
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my story to so many people which which was re-traumatizing with it itself.
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I'm like panic attacking on the phone every single person.
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But eventually they hooked me up with an occupational therapist and she and
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I did exposure therapy together.
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And so that all was going on right when the pandemic started too.
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So then there was that all at the same time.
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And then the guilt and shame associated with not being beside my co-workers
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in that event also then sunk in. And so, yeah, really having to kind of process through.
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Yeah. Suddenly I'm feeling anger and not knowing what's true and being like,
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what is this? This feels horrid.
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Right. That is crazy. That is so crazy.
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And, you know, I'm sure like with your co-workers, you guys would trauma bond, right?
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Like trying to just help each other out of those difficult situations.
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Because if you're not allowed to talk about it, you're not allowed to feel it,
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then how do they expect you to not feel it?
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Have some sort of mental health crisis because of that, right?
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Like, I know from my own experience, not talking about it, you know,
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not being able to find my voice or find my footing and just holding it all in
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was probably worse for me than if I'd just been able to find my voice to begin with.
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But I'm so happy that you were able to get the help that you needed.
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Yes, because so many don't. So many people don't get the help they needed because
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they didn't fill out the right paperwork when it happened. So because I knew
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right away something was wrong, I just sat down, did the claim,
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did the incident report.
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Because there's paperwork that people have to do. You have to make the call.
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You have to do the report. You have to do all these different things.
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And I did that. And I reached out to my manager to let her know that I wouldn't
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be at my next shift and what happened.
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And the response was the one that in the nursing world, we always make fun of
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this because management often says, well, what could you have done better?
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Is usually their response is like well
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what where was your learning opportunity it's like too soon girlfriend too soon
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yeah yeah emailing you right now through tears is very telling about how i'm
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feeling but she gave me a very minimizing response to what what had occurred
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one of the the elements that prompted the dysregulation in the person that the
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patient interaction was they wanted
00:21:09
something from their purse but it was filled with exposed needles
00:21:12
and because of that I said I'm so sorry but like it's just too dangerous for
00:21:18
me to go in there and that for her was too much for her system to to take and
00:21:24
that's where it spiraled but well my manager they their response was we'll just
00:21:28
use the stick proof loves.
00:21:30
And I'm like, okay, well, I guess I'll just bring the bag to you next time.
00:21:34
No problem. You can use them. I have the right to do this unsafe work.
00:21:38
I don't know about you, but I do. Yeah.
00:21:42
Wow. Holy shit. Okay. So you kind of are like propelled into this journey now,
00:21:48
right? You're switching careers.
00:21:49
Did you stay going in school through
00:21:51
the pandemic? Were you able to do it remotely and keep doing all that?
00:21:54
Yeah. Because luckily it was all fully remote from the beginning because I wanted
00:21:59
to be able able to continue nursing throughout my schooling.
00:22:01
And so, yeah, I was doing my schooling at... So yeah, I was doing my master's
00:22:06
at the same time as I was doing all my trauma healing. Wow.
00:22:10
That's tough. It was really hard.
00:22:14
It was a really hard time period. And yet I look back and I also think being
00:22:19
a nurse prepares you for hard things at the same time.
00:22:23
So instead of allowing myself to just rest, which would have been likely much better serving for me,
00:22:29
I went harder because I was almost trying to prove something to myself so that
00:22:34
I could still feel productive and still feel like I was doing something,
00:22:39
even though really my worth should not be being held to what I can produce anyways. Right.
00:22:46
This is the second... Are you noticing a theme so far, G-Rex, for this?
00:22:51
It's like the second person we've talked to today where it feels
00:22:54
like there's this like fiber of like how do we define our
00:22:57
worth and productivity like what is productivity mean because it
00:23:00
doesn't have to be you know what your employer expects of
00:23:03
you or you know how much money are you making like
00:23:06
there is something there where it's the
00:23:09
substance of life right because the only person you
00:23:12
need to prove it to is you you don't need to be out
00:23:15
there proving it to somebody else you know as long
00:23:18
as you're feeling better inside you know that you're you're
00:23:21
a good person that you you belong to society
00:23:24
that you're doing stuff that makes
00:23:27
you happy that's all that should really matter right like those outside forces
00:23:32
because it shouldn't really affect how you live your day-to-day life okay i'm
00:23:40
gonna preface this right probably should have learned this before i was 60 But
00:23:44
I'm going to tell you, between the time that I was 59,
00:23:47
the very next day I turned 60, when I turned 60, I was like, I don't fucking care.
00:23:52
I don't care what people think about me, right?
00:23:55
And so for our listeners, like, do shit that makes you happy,
00:24:00
not somebody else, right? Do it for you.
00:24:04
And don't wait until you're 60 to figure that out. Because if I figured that
00:24:07
out in my 40s, I'd probably be in a different place in my life.
00:24:11
But you know i'm really happy page that you were able to do that for you right
00:24:17
because workplaces can be so hard on you right and they can take so much life out of you and.
00:24:26
People don't realize how hostile those environments can be.
00:24:30
And it's not just in the nursing field. It is across the board in every type of work experience.
00:24:36
And I think that people don't realize that, you know, there's help out there
00:24:41
that you can get. And there's not just one type of therapy.
00:24:44
Like Dirty Skills likes to call it, speed date your therapist.
00:24:49
Speed date. Oh, that's brilliant!
00:24:51
Yeah, ask the important shit up front before. I mean, for me,
00:24:55
I mean, I went to what, three therapists.
00:24:57
The third one was the one that it made sense. It worked.
00:25:02
But the very first one I went to, I remember just being like too shy.
00:25:05
Like I thought, oh, if I wasn't fulfilled or getting something out of it was me.
00:25:09
There was something wrong with me. Like I'm just not ready for it or I, you know, whatever.
00:25:14
And I put it on a pause. And then I went to the second one and I'm like,
00:25:19
okay, I'm going to be more aggressive because I know kind of what you were saying
00:25:22
where I knew something was not right, but I didn't know what it was.
00:25:27
So I needed to talk to somebody.
00:25:29
So immediately the second one, I speed dated them. I'm like,
00:25:32
okay, can you talk to me about this?
00:25:33
And that's the way to do it because they're upfront and honest.
00:25:36
They're like, actually, no, it's not where I specialize.
00:25:38
But, you know, here's this other person, maybe try reaching out to them.
00:25:41
And boom, that was the one. I love her to death.
00:25:44
But... Oh, that's so, so good that you knew to continue.
00:25:49
In your like because it is so awful when we
00:25:52
go to see someone that words page
00:25:55
sometimes it takes me a moment to organize them
00:25:58
in there when we're seeking support we're in
00:26:01
such a vulnerable position because we're not often looking for counselors or
00:26:04
mental health support when we're feeling right it's not usually and so there's
00:26:10
like it's the level of vulnerability and i i feel like There's this idea that
00:26:14
every therapist knows how to treat and support every patient.
00:26:20
Thing that comes through their doors. And I have quite a diverse range of what
00:26:26
I can work with because of my psych nursing background. So I'm incredibly grateful.
00:26:30
But there are so many areas of specialization that exist.
00:26:35
And finding the right match for you can be such a personality related thing as well.
00:26:41
Because if I don't vibe with their personality, if their personality
00:26:44
doesn't make me feel safe enough to be vulnerable even
00:26:47
if that that it's even if it's just awkwardness within
00:26:51
itself is something saying something's not
00:26:54
matching up here right it's just an emotion being like i feel uncomfortable
00:26:58
and if their space doesn't make you feel comfortable or their personality doesn't
00:27:03
just bring that auto comfort then it's going to be so much harder you're not
00:27:07
going to be able to dive deeper into that stuff because your body's saying no yeah that's exactly
00:27:12
right I that first therapist I didn't feel comfortable
00:27:16
and I think it was I it related to not
00:27:19
feeling safe so I just remember them giving a bunch of paperwork like oh
00:27:22
here's this paper it'll help you get through that and I'm like okay whatever
00:27:25
but I just it didn't stick it was the
00:27:28
last one I felt safe I felt comfortable we meshed like
00:27:31
our personalities and yeah I was able to be myself
00:27:34
and be vulnerable and be open and I the
00:27:38
greatest thing ever yeah and and like with me
00:27:40
like my first therapist like she just wanted me to go to a bunch of groups okay
00:27:44
I don't want to be in a group session right I need to just talk to one person
00:27:49
like don't push me off onto somebody else because I'm already having a hard
00:27:53
enough time finding my own fucking voice right to tell you what's going on yeah you know.
00:28:00
And thankfully for me, because I live in a really remote area,
00:28:03
I don't have to go and see them face to face.
00:28:05
I can do it over the Internet, which is perfect for me. Right.
00:28:09
But that may not work for everybody else. But there are people out there that can help.
00:28:14
And if you're really stuck and you're feeling in a very vulnerable position,
00:28:21
there's phone numbers you can call. Like here in the States, you can call 988.
00:28:25
I believe that's the same number in Canada.
00:28:28
And we just implemented that like a couple
00:28:31
months ago in Canada yes 988 and it's
00:28:34
such a great resource right you don't have to give your name you
00:28:37
the person on the other end is super empathetic they
00:28:41
get you the resources you need because the very next day
00:28:44
for me I was in therapy I didn't really
00:28:47
like my therapist went on to a second therapist by
00:28:50
the third therapist I'm stuck I see her twice a week still
00:28:52
you know such a better place and I'm
00:28:56
a firm believer in therapy and i do i
00:28:59
do different kinds of therapies too so i do a little hypnosis too
00:29:02
i'm doing that for sleep now because insomnia sucks okay just gonna tell you
00:29:08
it sucks but just another kick in the nuts it is you're not feeling good and
00:29:13
guess what you don't ever get to sleep yeah you never escape it now you can
00:29:18
just never escape it ever have fun yeah exactly goodbye.
00:29:27
Oh my goodness. Okay. So you transition into this first.
00:29:34
One thing I don't want to forget to say, I kudos to you, right?
00:29:38
Because you had this career.
00:29:41
You knew, I mean, you started it because you were passionate about talking with people.
00:29:45
But you're in this career, you have a traumatic event, it causes a shift in
00:29:50
yourself, in your life, everything.
00:29:51
But instead of completely shying away from anything having to do with this,
00:29:56
you still pursued that kind of core passion of still working with people.
00:30:00
So I just wanted to say kudos because I know I probably would have pulled completely
00:30:05
away. I'm very extreme personality.
00:30:08
I'd be like, nope, fuck everything having to do with that. like never
00:30:11
going back there but i that's not necessarily the right
00:30:13
path right so but i love that acknowledgement of
00:30:17
it because that's like our fight or flight kicking in right like and
00:30:20
right for me although i never really experienced anger i had to experience the
00:30:25
urgency is associated with the fight response so a fight response for me is
00:30:29
do something and so yeah i just did did a bunch of things to try and tell the
00:30:37
body like look we're doing the thing.
00:30:39
I'm scratching that itch I'm doing it yes yes and
00:30:43
so for me I'm my my I'm
00:30:46
more lean into like the fight response versus the flight response that's
00:30:49
just how my nervous system goes and I already
00:30:52
had kind of determined I was probably going to
00:30:55
be specializing in supporting health care providers before I
00:30:58
even started my schooling after that workplace incident the most healing thing
00:31:04
that I did was once I settled into the comfortability of being a human being
00:31:10
and giving myself compassion and working through that inner dialogue of I need something to prove,
00:31:16
I shared my story in a blog post.
00:31:19
And I'm even just tearing up even just thinking about it because the response I got from other
00:31:29
nurses who felt heard because no one no one had shared what they had went through
00:31:37
with me I thought I was flawed I thought I was broken because I didn't know
00:31:44
others other people's story,
00:31:46
and that the moment when someone said to me if this could happen to you it can happen to anyone,
00:31:54
it reminded me of how fucking badass I actually am.
00:32:01
Complete badass. Complete badass.
00:32:05
And that comment from that person and all of the other people who shared their
00:32:11
journeys and their stories with me sparked a fire in me that now there is no
00:32:16
doubt in my mind in any way,
00:32:18
shape or form that I will change the culture of healthcare care and I will bring
00:32:24
humanity to health care.
00:32:25
That's so awesome because like with my journey, you know, I started sharing
00:32:30
on social media like right away and nobody knew.
00:32:35
Dirty Skills didn't know. She's my manager. She had no idea how depressed I was.
00:32:39
But as soon as I started sharing my story, people thanked
00:32:42
me because now they didn't feel so alone
00:32:45
and so terrified in their own journey and that's really how
00:32:48
the whole podcast came together right it's because
00:32:51
we wanted to share those stories and give people resources and maybe a little
00:32:56
levity and giving them a place to feel that they are heard and that they're
00:33:05
seen and i couldn't do this without dirty skittles because,
00:33:11
you know, she keeps me on my up and up.
00:33:15
I think, yeah, I don't need, I don't take any credit.
00:33:19
I just... Well, you let me talk about squirrels, so, you know.
00:33:23
That's true. That's true.
00:33:25
I want to say that the two, the both of you, right? Like you sharing it in a
00:33:29
blog post, G-Rex, you sharing it on social media, just how brave that is because...
00:33:38
I can't... And maybe this is the flight, right? This is the flight in me.
00:33:41
I can't imagine doing that.
00:33:44
It's just... And I sometimes question it.
00:33:48
I'm like, I wonder if it has to do with your time is your time when you're ready to do it, right?
00:33:52
Don't force yourself into this because everybody else is, right?
00:33:57
But that takes a lot of guts to be brave because you're being vulnerable out
00:34:02
in the open for anybody who's going to read this thing to consume and know who you are.
00:34:08
And I think that is such a brave thing
00:34:10
so both of you credit like you're not
00:34:13
only sharing your story but you're you are bringing
00:34:16
the humanity to it you're putting a face to this thing that
00:34:19
a lot of us feel but you would never know because we're not going to tell you
00:34:24
right we're barely admitted to ourselves so to put it out there for the world
00:34:28
to see I mean congrats you guys are doing huge shit it took me a long time to
00:34:33
get where I'm at but you know Paige I saw this quote the other day and it's so fitting.
00:34:38
And it says, sometimes the bravest thing you can do is give voice to your struggles.
00:34:43
Sharing your story might just be the key that unlocks someone's prism.
00:34:48
And it's truth, right? Like people, but for me, it was hard, right?
00:34:53
I needed help to be able to give my voice.
00:34:56
I needed help to like say it was okay because at my age, you know, I'm 60.
00:35:01
You know, we were all taught, you shove that shit down. You don't talk about it.
00:35:05
You don't and it gets to a point where
00:35:09
it did on christmas day that i couldn't talk about it i'm i was just terrified
00:35:13
and you know thank god 988 thank god my wife was home and thank god for some
00:35:18
guardian angel i don't know who it was but thank you for whoever you were because
00:35:22
i'm here today and i'm alive and i'm so very thankful for that.
00:35:26
Because I'm in such a better place. And I'm so glad that you're doing what you need to do, Paige.
00:35:34
Not just for yourself, but for others. Others. And for your practice. You guys are badass.
00:35:41
I'm so incredibly proud of each and every person who works alongside me.
00:35:47
My clients as well as my colleagues.
00:35:49
Because I have a group practice. and that
00:35:54
that also wasn't anticipated right off the hop it
00:35:57
was a year by myself and then one of my girlfriends was
00:36:00
like hey i want to hang out with you more and i want to work with you it's
00:36:03
like sure why not and then within a year it grew to eight of us wow and so it
00:36:09
was like a massive learning curve but my entire my entire goal because i've
00:36:15
structured it a little differently than some of the other practices in Canada
00:36:19
with like some lower splits.
00:36:20
I want them to feel so valued financially and like socially.
00:36:28
And just, I want to keep people in the field. I am so anti-burnout club. I am so anti-supremacy.
00:36:34
I'm just very, how can we just acknowledge our humanness and live within our humanness?
00:36:41
Because the more we keep trying to work outside of our human capabilities,
00:36:45
in a world that is very overstimulating.
00:36:50
Yeah. The more burnt out and more distracted and the less we can actually enjoy
00:36:55
and the more fight or flighty we're going to feel or even worse,
00:36:57
getting into that state of freeze, that numbness, that inability to even experience
00:37:01
emotions anymore because our body is shut down.
00:37:04
Yeah. And while you were going through this page, was your family supportive of you? Did you feel...
00:37:13
You were being supported. Yeah, I definitely did. My mom was in the healthcare field as well.
00:37:19
And I know that all of their comments were so well-meaning, but they would say,
00:37:25
well, why don't you just go back?
00:37:26
If you're avoiding the place, isn't that going to be a problem?
00:37:29
And I get exactly where they're coming from. And I totally get from where their
00:37:33
generation knows. It's like, just go, just go do the thing. And then eventually,
00:37:36
you'll get used to it again.
00:37:38
And I'm like, I don't really want to flood my system. I'm doing exposure therapy.
00:37:43
Exposure therapy is safely returning back where I feel a bit yucky,
00:37:48
but not crisis level yucky.
00:37:50
Because if I had just been popped right back up on the intensive psych ward,
00:37:54
my body would have panicked incredibly.
00:37:57
Because even after months of transitioning to even step foot in the hospital
00:38:01
for the first time I was in there, I sat down in the lobby.
00:38:04
So I wasn't even on the floor of where I had my workplace injury.
00:38:09
My heart rate shot up to 192, which is very high.
00:38:15
So that to me was a very physiologic piece of measuring tool of looking at my
00:38:23
Fitbit and going, oh, I'm really not okay.
00:38:27
And that was months into the journey. And that was actually around the time
00:38:32
I probably wrote that blog post because there was something thing about seeing
00:38:35
that physiological evidence, my body thinks I'm going to die here.
00:38:40
Yeah. Was just like mind blowing. Yeah.
00:38:45
Cause you're not, it's, it makes it real, right?
00:38:48
Like it's, I can see this and it's like the two align, right?
00:38:53
Like what I'm feeling. And then what I see, it's like a exact reputation representation
00:38:57
of like something is wrong. Yes.
00:39:01
Cause before I was like, maybe I'm just making too big of a deal out of it.
00:39:04
But when my body, when I had that physiological body response there and I was
00:39:09
like, Oh, yeah. I'm not bullshitting myself.
00:39:13
Right. You're like acknowledging yourself. Yeah.
00:39:19
Yeah. So my family was very supportive in listening to my story and my journey and everything.
00:39:26
But of course, what they themselves and so many other people said,
00:39:30
it was not just them. Like, why don't you just go back and see how it goes?
00:39:33
Well, I found out even in the middle of my exposure.
00:39:36
And then eventually I was working again on that unit. So I was working on that
00:39:41
unit by the end of my nursing career again.
00:39:44
And so I was able to get there and be there.
00:39:47
But I was so happy to be able to go back and have a different lens.
00:39:54
And I was even that much more supportive of my colleagues.
00:39:57
So after a violent incident, I'd be chasing them down to make sure they were
00:40:00
okay. Because often they'll just continue to be in their fight or flight mode.
00:40:04
Yeah. Or that shutdown professional mode that we get into. to.
00:40:07
And so then I was the one being like, at the end of shift, call me if something
00:40:11
comes up, shoot me an email, I started to be the go to person that people would
00:40:15
text or call after workplace incidences and being like, what did you do? What was your journey?
00:40:20
Like, what do I do? And that was such an honor to get those those texts because
00:40:26
I know how scary it is to ask for help.
00:40:28
But nobody would have known to come to me unless I said something because everyone
00:40:32
thought I was just taking time off work to go to school.
00:40:36
Yeah, I can see the exact same thing happening for like policemen and firefighters
00:40:40
and even doctors, right? Yeah.
00:40:44
And for police and fire and ambulance, it's almost even like,
00:40:47
and military, it's almost even
00:40:49
an extra level because like healthcare is a pretty like hardcore space.
00:40:53
But at least for us in the ER, we're often getting a call ahead of time from
00:40:59
whoever is bringing somebody to us. So we at least can have a little bit of mental prep.
00:41:03
We know we're in a safe place. we know are safe enough place
00:41:06
we know that there's colleagues around that there's policies and
00:41:09
procedures we can do first responders might get
00:41:12
something through the 911 dispatch but often they don't know the details because
00:41:16
the person who's calling is calling in panic and they don't even really know
00:41:20
they're not able to fully comprehend what's happening and so our first responders
00:41:24
they have to shut down things in a whole other level and working with those
00:41:30
populations now as a counselor,
00:41:32
I recognize and acknowledge that even that field is just even harder to tap
00:41:39
into their emotional side,
00:41:41
I would say, than even healthcare.
00:41:44
I'm thinking even in like a call center environment, right? Or in a service industry.
00:41:50
For me, you know, I'm a true empath. So I would take on everybody else's crap
00:41:55
and not take care of my own stuff.
00:41:57
And, you know, being in that call center environment, you know
00:41:59
you're getting you get beat up every day same in
00:42:03
any like service industry or anything like that and
00:42:06
you know now i have the tools and i can step back and you know take a look at
00:42:12
that but i don't think a lot of companies give people those tools right to figure
00:42:18
out you're you're in that fight or flight you know you can't tell the customer
00:42:22
shut the f up on the phone i mean I mean,
00:42:25
you want to, but you can't. You want to, but you're in the back of your head.
00:42:29
You're like, I need my money, and I need to be able to work,
00:42:31
and I want to tell this guy to shut the fuck up. But, you know, we can't.
00:42:36
You know, and that's, you know.
00:42:39
I think as the world, the world's a scary place right now, right?
00:42:46
And that we, not just as individuals, but like companies need to provide people
00:42:51
with those tools, right?
00:42:53
And not make them fucking pay for it, right? Give them a tool that they can
00:42:58
use on a day-to-day basis, right?
00:43:01
A stress ball is not going to fucking help. I'm going to tell you, right?
00:43:04
I had a sand, you know, remember those like squeezy sandballs,
00:43:08
right? One day, I got so mad at work, I squeezed it so hard,
00:43:12
sand went all over the carpet.
00:43:17
We need to do better. And companies need to acknowledge the importance of having
00:43:24
an element of choice for their employees and the subcontractors that are at their company.
00:43:29
Because if there's a policy that if someone starts screaming at you on the phone,
00:43:35
we should have the absolute right to say,
00:43:39
unfortunately, based on where this conversation is going, I can no longer continue
00:43:44
unless you lower your voice.
00:43:46
Yes. Because this is assault. This is verbally assaulting me because our very
00:43:52
natural fight or flight response is so natural to be impacted by that.
00:43:56
Right. Yeah. And when we work in the service industry and we can't say what
00:44:01
we want to say, we're stifling that fight or flight.
00:44:04
And where does it go? It just lives in our body.
00:44:07
We shut her down, we compress it, and then we don't go back to it.
00:44:11
And it's so essential that we can acknowledge that kind of behavior.
00:44:17
No matter how much I understand where people are in pain,
00:44:21
If I'm screaming at someone, I believe that people have the right to tell me no.
00:44:28
Sorry, not sorry. If you're in customer service and I'm being a bitch,
00:44:33
you have the right to say no to me.
00:44:37
Because obviously, I am being a bitch. If I'm potentially assaulting you,
00:44:42
that's a problem. That's a me problem.
00:44:44
I might be angry about something very validly, but that does not mean that I
00:44:49
have the allowance to assault someone.
00:44:51
Yeah. Yeah. We're still humans. We are. Every single one of us, we're still human.
00:44:57
Yeah. Just a human with emotions and thoughts. And family and things that we
00:45:02
love doing. And yeah. Yeah.
00:45:05
Yeah. Oh my God.
00:45:08
So my kind of final questions for you is, what do you do today to take care
00:45:15
of yourself and acknowledge your emotions and go through whatever you need to go through?
00:45:18
One of the most important things for my life that I keep noticing through different
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waves of when I'm like, oh, I took on too much. Now I need to kind of settle down.
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One of the most important things for my mental health is something called time
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affluence, that fluidity and flexibility of time, that ability to have days
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where I can do whatever I want to.
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Those days where I have the capability to just do like completely spiritually
00:45:39
reflective day where I can do, like I'm currently doing a course by Dr. Edith Eger.
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It's a self-help and development course. And she's my absolute idol.
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She's an incredible woman. If you've never heard of her, please look into her.
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She's a Holocaust survivor and now a psychologist.
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And so I absolutely love the prompts that she has.
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So being able to do different types of wellness education, listening to certain
00:46:05
podcasts, being able... And yeah, I do a lot of things.
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I have a list of all of these different things I could...
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I have a backpack that's an art backpack, for example. So if
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I'm feeling called to do something more creative I can that is
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easily accessible for me that if I can journal that's
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easily accessible for me or even breath work I go
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to a free breath work every single Thursday morning with one of my girlfriends
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and there's all of these different little bits and pieces that I add and it
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just intuitively do what feels good I need the time affluence to be able to
00:46:37
do what intuitively feels good yeah so you're taking the time you're listening
00:46:41
to yourself and doing what feels right I love that I have my fun questions to
00:46:45
your access unless you know you No,
00:46:46
you get to do it because I stumped you last time. I know, I know. Okay.
00:46:52
Paige, if you could go back to an earlier version of yourself and tell yourself
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a bit of advice, what would you say to yourself? And how old are you when you go back?
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I would go back to age 14. I'd go back to age 14.
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And I would tell her that she's a good person.
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And that no matter what happens in this life, she is a good person, period.
00:47:23
And I don't know how to allow her to integrate that into her system so that she believed me.
00:47:28
But that was a message that I realized last year that was an inner message that I'm not a good person.
00:47:35
And after releasing that, it was probably one of the most freeing things I've experienced.
00:47:39
What do you think the 14-year-old version of yourself would ask you now?
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Oh, she would be like, do we still travel? And I would be like,
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no, girl, we're too broke. The economy sucks right now.
00:47:53
No, girl, we're going to read National Geographic. That's what we're going to do.
00:47:58
Yeah, we're going to be hitting up some Google Maps. yes google earthing traveling
00:48:03
nice although this year I am going to be going to New York in June for a women's
00:48:08
conference so there will be a little a smidge of travel this year,
00:48:13
what has been the most what has been the hardest lesson that you've learned
00:48:20
I'm going to make her cry again no this is such a good that's such a good question um,
00:48:29
Can you ask it one more time? Yeah. What's the hardest lesson you've learned so far?
00:48:35
Hardest lesson I've learned so far would be, and it's one that I'm still processing
00:48:40
as I continue forward in my journey, is not being as trauma-informed as I could
00:48:44
have been as a nurse and learning how to let go and release some of the trauma that I may have,
00:48:50
incorporated into people's lives based on the nursing practices that we were taught.
00:48:55
That's a good one. Wow, that's a good answer. soon. Last one,
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trying to think of how to word this.
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What do you hope, like if we could meet again in let's say three years,
00:49:07
maybe two years even, where do you hope you, or how far do you hope you've grown?
00:49:14
So in what area of your life, if there's something you're currently working
00:49:16
on, or if there's a lesson you know is on the cusp of like, I need to do this
00:49:20
thing, where do you see yourself in that amount of time?
00:49:24
Do you think that, And what lesson are you hoping to learn by then?
00:49:28
I'm hoping that I've figured out how to change the healthcare system.
00:49:32
I'm hoping that what I do currently know and the people that I have starting
00:49:36
to make connections with, that I'm speaking worldwide about how we can enhance
00:49:42
our healthcare systems because we need help like now.
00:49:47
And so I'm already on the trajectory of like increasing my public speaking and being on stages.
00:49:53
And I'm going to be speaking at a hospital in Edmonton next month.
00:49:56
And so it's coming to fruition. And I really would love for in three years time
00:50:02
to feel so honed in and be just helping more people on a bigger scale.
00:50:07
That would be theabsolutebomb.com.
00:50:11
That gave me goosebumps. I'm really excited. I'm super excited.
00:50:14
I felt like it was happening. I was like, oh my God, it's gonna happen. It's gonna happen.
00:50:18
Yeah. Even on stage on Thursday, I was at a women's event here in Kelowna.
00:50:22
Many women and I was doing laughter.
00:50:24
Therapy on stage and running around getting to
00:50:27
be absolutely ludicrous and ridiculous and engaging with an
00:50:30
audience and it was probably one of the most profound stage performances I've
00:50:35
ever had and because of my stand-up comedy background and also being a musician
00:50:39
and things I've been on hundreds I on stage hundreds of times that one took
00:50:44
the cake and I can only imagine it continuing to grow and enhance just more and more and more.
00:50:51
So I have one question for you, Paige.
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What is a piece of advice that you could give to any of our listeners that are
00:51:01
going through something similar to what you went through?
00:51:05
What is the one thing that they could do for themselves?
00:51:08
Acknowledge your humanness. Learn about self-compassion. Go to selfcompassion.org
00:51:13
and learn about self-compassion.
00:51:15
Dr. Kristen Neff has incredible work that she has done.
00:51:19
And if we can't acknowledge our
00:51:22
humanness and that we are human beings
00:51:25
and that we are not going to be perfect then we're
00:51:28
never going to feel a sense of satisfaction because we're always going to think
00:51:31
we need to do more but our humanist dictates how far we can go i love that thank
00:51:39
you thank you thank you page thank you i oh my god this was such a good session
00:51:45
i love it i feel I just had therapy. I'm so excited.
00:51:48
I'm also excited for you, Paige. Oh, my God. I'm feeling so warm and fuzzy right now.
00:51:53
I'm feeling all of the good feels throughout my body, like head to toe right now.
00:51:59
I'm feeling just that excited energy.
00:52:02
I got tingles. I think you literally spoke it out into the world.
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I'm like, oh, shit, this is fucking going to happen, bro. I'm so excited for you.
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